Day 24 really sucked. The closer I get to the finish line, the more I am feeling “over it.” The rigidity is getting to me and I’m sick of meat and vegetables. On day 24 in particular I experienced massive cravings (pizza, burgers and wine) for the first time since I started. So I kept eating (and eating and eating) Whole30 approved fare in an effort to satisfy my “hunger” but the more I ate the crappier I felt. By the afternoon I was feeling gross from being overly full, still daydreaming about shit food, and to top it off I had no energy and could barely push a wooden box across the floor at Crossfit.
I texted my sister and sister-in-law (who are about two weeks into their Whole30) and tried to get them to join in my pity party. My sister was also having a tough day so she jumped right on board with “I’m debating having a glass of wine tonight.”
I was in a really dark place, void of reasoning, rational thought and discipline, so I 100 percent supported her cheating with wine. Because if she could, then I could cheat too. We were moments away from a long distance “eff the Whole30” cheers, when something remarkable happened.
My sister-in-law joined in the text conversation.
“Aggghhh!!!!! Guys! Get it together. Remember, having cancer is hard, having a baby is hard. Saying no to a craving is not hard - these are not my words but from the Whole30 site. So I get it, but remember when you set out on this journey how determined you were. Don’t give in!!!!!!!!!!”
Yes, there were actually that many exclamation marks.
And to that, all I have to say is… "OUCH!'... and...“BRILLIANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
In the words of Bryan Adams, “…it cuts like a knife. But it feels so right.”
Here’s a better and more poignant analogy for the point I’m trying to make…
“I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.” John 15: 1-2
Yep, I just did that. I pulled the God card on you, because this passage is awesome and has so much to do with not only our Whole30 journey, but a zillion other life things as well. We NEED people in our lives to play the role of the gardener. We need people who will hypothetically “cut” us, not out of spite or righteousness or anger, but out of love, so that we can grow. It’s what good parents do with their children, and it’s what my sister-in-law did with us.
We are so grateful.